Happiness

Hey hey,

I am trying to pull my  thoughts together.  To say I am happy is so vague.  But I am down to my core.    I have started this journey of self discovery and I like where I am going.    I have become more confident,  more creative and a lot more social.  I am so content with my world.  I don’t even know where I am going with this blog, I guess we will find out together.  To put into words what you are feeling in your soul is not easy.

But I feel like there has actually been some kinds of shift in me on a cellular level.  Somehow between this journey and the intense loss of my mom, I have changed.  I feel deeper and have a zest for life that I can not explaine.   I feel her loss so profoundly that is odd that I have come more alive than ever.  The only part that saddens me is that I can’t share it with her.

I have also worked hard to make peace with my past and let go and love and forgive myself and others.  Putting it out in a public form and getting support and love is so powerful.

I have been able to connect with others more now that I have connected to myself in a true authentic way.  I am finding an amazing tribe of women that I love.

I have never been more creative in my life.  Right now I am loving Macramé, I am a bit obsessed with making plant hangers and also the plants to fill them with.  And bread I am a bit in love with making sourdough bread and keeping my little start alive that I call “Momma Bear”.  My home feels cozy and the smell of fresh bread baking is so wonderful.

I am very appreciative to have such a rich life and a wonderful man to share it with who always encourages me to spread my wings.  I love you Richard.   I cherish my lovely children and grand babies and all the friendships in my life new and old.

 

I guess the point of this blog was just to say I am happy.

 

Peace, love and joy,

 

Christy